It's Not What If, It's What Now

So, I got the job. Yay me right? Right. Don't get me wrong. I am very excited to be living back in Utah. But, I am not looking forward to the moving. That sucks. I'm not looking forward to being stressed out about a babysitter until May. That sucks as well. Dustin had an interview last week. He thinks it went rather well. He has a 'hookup' there, so chances are likely. It'd be full time, like my current job, and he'd be making the same as I am now. I'm very proud. I know he would be ecstatic if he got it. Bad part is, we won't know until mid-April if he got it or not. But at least I can be 'free of worry' about a babysitter. Kinda. Anyway, Thursday is my last day, and that night we're headed up to Utah because I have orientation Friday morning. Not even one day off. Ha figures :) I am excited to get some quality time in with my sisters and BFF's. :) I'm joining a softball league with my sister Ashley, and we're going to start scrapbooking. I've wanted to try that for a while. I think it should be way fun! I'm trying to convince Dust that we should come back down for Easter, to spend time with my mom's side of the family, and then everyone can properly say goodbye to Kaiden. I do kind of feel like a jerk for taking him away. Everyone just loves him... but I can't leave him. Haha Even if I could, I wouldn't. So, this is where we are now. In the process of moving. New job. New home. And hopefully a new car before long. :) What's that saying? All is well that ends well? We'll see!

We Can't Live Off Of What If's

This morning, I got an email from my boss saying that things over at the other office were crazy. That they're getting overflowed with candidates trying to apply. We've had 73 people apply this week. Eight of which should have gone to my office to apply, and one of which who actually did. That doesn't look so great. It's hard to tell what that means. Everyone over there is agitated and everyone just wants things to be back the way they were. Too bad none of them have a say in it. The owner will make the last decision. He has no idea what they are going through. All he wants to do is save money, which it's too early to tell if he will. We're only four days in. We have the whole rest of march to thin out this situation. No one really knows what's going to happen. 

I do, however have an interview this Saturday in Cedar City. I'd be making three dollars less than I do now, and it'd be part time instead of full. After my interview, I have an appointment with a landlord on this great two bedroom twin home. At a great price! I am absolutely in love with this place. It would be SO nice for Kaiden to have his own room again, and to get all of his toys out of my cluttered living room! I have a really good feeling that I'll get this job no problem, great right? It would be.

Here's my problem. We don't know for sure IF they are going to be shutting down my office. What IF they don't, and I take the job in Cedar? Then I could have kept my job making good money in a studio apartment. But, what IF they do close it down and I stay because no one knows for sure what's going to happen? Then I'd be out of a job. I would much rather be in Cedar. I am so much happier there. I had a hard time leaving in the first place. The only reason I did, was because of the job I have now. But IF I lose this job, what's holding me back? It's a tough situation. I think I know what I have to do. I just don't want to disappoint anyone. I need to do what's right for my family. I hope everyone can respect that, even IF they think it's not the right choice. I hate What If's.