You would think I would learn by now. Not to post stupid stuff that probably wont apply three months from now. Maybe I'll learn this time. Things with Brett and I fell apart- a long time ago. Neither one of us were ready to settle down. Period. I love my single life and it took dating Brett to figure that out. It actually kind of scares me to think about settling down. I don't want to. Ever. And that scares me even more. Either way- I'm not going to post about any guy any more! No matter how smitten I think I may be. It always ends the same. They become too attached, it pushes me away, he'll end up heart broken and I'll end up feeling bad and with one less friend. I hate this never ending cycle. But what do you do?
On another note. I granted Dustin primary custody. Our visitation isn't changing so I'm completely okay with this. I love Kaiden more than anything but I'm a big enough person to admit that Dustin is a better father than I am a mother. I'm not a bad mom by any means. But Dustin doesn't see life outside of Kaiden and I want what's best for him. I'll still see him just as much as Dustin will and when it comes time for Kaiden to go to school it's in the divorce papers that Kaiden has to go to school wherever I live. I couldn't ask for anything more.
I started college last January. I was just going in for my generals. I really liked school. But I got offered a position at an orthodontics office and that's what I was aiming my schooling toward so I don't think I'll be returning fall semester. I'm sure one day I will go back to school but for now I'm just going to focus on making money and establishing my own life.
Sam is moving to SLC in like two weeks. I'm going to miss her so much. We honestly don't even hang out that much now but she's still my best friend and it's really going to suck not having her around to talk to! Even my friend Mike is moving away. But I guess him and I aren't really the same anyway. I'll have Heather, we've seemed to grow pretty close lately but I'm supposed to be the one she comes to, not the other way around. And Lauren is still here.. but we've also drifted apart. We just have different interests now. People change I guess. I have. But I like the new me. I'm trouble. But I like it.
