I should really learn to take my own advice. I can't believe I let myself get so caught up in everything except what was important. I didn't even realize it. The people that I had been surrounding myself with were not the best. I had fun. A lot of it. Too much really. I feel like I lost myself for a minute. It didn't scare me until I looked at the big picture. I had to delete half my family from Facebook just so they couldn't see how much I'd been partying. That should have been my first clue. And it was the wrong kind of partying. There's nothing wrong with a drink every now and then, especially on occasion, but I was out of control. Honestly though, I'm glad I went through all that again. It was just another life lesson for me. Something I never want to go back to. But it was all done in good timing. So, no regrets.
Daniel, the last boy I posted about, just another one of my flings. Surprise surprise. He was no good for me anyway. He did help me wake up to see who I was becoming, however. So again, no regrets. On the other hand.. here I go again. Posting about another boy. Except he's not a new one. I'm seeing Brett again. Honestly, I couldn't be happier. I was happy when we were together the first time around. We just weren't ready to be so committed. So we went our separate ways, had too much fun, grew up a little, and just happened to reconnect. Lucky us. (:
We ran into each other about two months ago and a week later we hung out and it was like nothing had ever changed. We've been pretty much inseparable since. We both had a few ties to cut, but they're cut now and we're both happily dedicated. Things are better this time. We just got so burnt out from the crazy six months we spent apart, that we both know that we're both ready. We know so much about each other now and we still accept who we are. There's so much comfort in our relationship. And any partying that either of us feel the need to do, we're gonna do together. And neither one of us would have it any other way.
I'm a different kind of happy now. There's contentedness behind it. And that's such a good feeling. ♥ ♥ ♥
